Well, I think wherever I have to go for something, I hope one of that place can make me more calm, can make me relax, can make me forget all of my problem..
Just prepare for now, and maybe I'd go.. :)
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Love Story part 3
Today I wanna tell you bout my best man.
Well,why I put his in part 3? Cause 3 is my lucky number. Like him, he is my lucky man.
He found me first and after that I found my love.
I had a weird moment from the first I and him met. He took picture of himself with the paper which on the paper written words for his sister (his sister on fb), and because at the time I didnt know who is she, suddenly I was jealous. It was amazing. First, we just met around few days and I already jealous with the girl who so close with him. And I dont know why. Second, I felt something on him.
Time after time, coz I afraid with one of my ex, I asked him to pretend to be my bf. But around one week after I asked him it, he asked me to be his gf. I am perfectly happy at the time. It was look like my valentine's gift. What it called? Love? Maybe yes.
This is his picture at the first time, we met..
Well, it should have paper, but I didnt get his picture with the paper, coz his last fb suddenly lost..
I really love him until now, and day after day, time after time, this feeling is bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger, and I can't explain it, how much I love him..
Well,why I put his in part 3? Cause 3 is my lucky number. Like him, he is my lucky man.
He found me first and after that I found my love.
I had a weird moment from the first I and him met. He took picture of himself with the paper which on the paper written words for his sister (his sister on fb), and because at the time I didnt know who is she, suddenly I was jealous. It was amazing. First, we just met around few days and I already jealous with the girl who so close with him. And I dont know why. Second, I felt something on him.
Time after time, coz I afraid with one of my ex, I asked him to pretend to be my bf. But around one week after I asked him it, he asked me to be his gf. I am perfectly happy at the time. It was look like my valentine's gift. What it called? Love? Maybe yes.
This is his picture at the first time, we met..
But yeah, this was his picture when the first time we met.
And the other first his picture,
I love him more than myself.
I remember, his fav food is Lasagna, Pizza, Ramen. He loves Black. His fav singer is Tinkerchel. His hobby is hacker, make web. His tall around 175cm, his eyes is brown, his hair is black. His fav song is lilium and loituma. His fav games is xbox.
We started to webchat on last November. Which I just got new lepy. And we webchat. I was so happy at the time. And the first time we webchat, I thought I was nose bleeding. He is so handsome, really handsome. With his smile. I love everything of him..
I really love him.
I remember the first we date, we was so happy, but the happiness turn to the sadness. You never imagine, how sad you are, when you know, your special someone, got kicked out from his own parents. At the time, I was really sad, I was crying, I never stopped to pray for him. I just want his safety, his happiness.
Yeah, happiness and sadness in our first relation. He taught me, how lucky I am, I have my parents who loves me much, and until now, I want him in here with me, feel the love from my parents. I want my parents be his parents too.
I want he feels what I feel in family. I really wanna make him be happy. I really need his happiness. I really love him. I wanna save him, I wanna protect him, I wanna teach him back that his life so precious.
His life so precious for me, for himself.
He is my bestman. And yeah, he is that someone who I already told on my last post. The someone who already taught me to just love him all of my life, taught me to really love him, taught me to support each other when sad or happy,taught me to always pray to God to ask His/Her protect for my bestman, taught me to always make him happy all of his life.
Although we already broke up now, I still believe him, believe him.
He will take me out from here. I believe him much, and I wait for him.
My Bestman, My Special someone on my heart, Bestman who never change in my heart, cause none can change him in my heart. Someone who I really love more than myself, someone who never I can't explain why I love him. Someone who really important for myself. Someone who I will give my "something precious". Someone who will I give my First Kiss. Someone who I really love in deepest my heart, someone who I will really love all of my life, from the past, now, always, and forever.
When we webchat ♥
I remember, his fav food is Lasagna, Pizza, Ramen. He loves Black. His fav singer is Tinkerchel. His hobby is hacker, make web. His tall around 175cm, his eyes is brown, his hair is black. His fav song is lilium and loituma. His fav games is xbox.
We started to webchat on last November. Which I just got new lepy. And we webchat. I was so happy at the time. And the first time we webchat, I thought I was nose bleeding. He is so handsome, really handsome. With his smile. I love everything of him..
I really love him.
I remember the first we date, we was so happy, but the happiness turn to the sadness. You never imagine, how sad you are, when you know, your special someone, got kicked out from his own parents. At the time, I was really sad, I was crying, I never stopped to pray for him. I just want his safety, his happiness.
Yeah, happiness and sadness in our first relation. He taught me, how lucky I am, I have my parents who loves me much, and until now, I want him in here with me, feel the love from my parents. I want my parents be his parents too.
I want he feels what I feel in family. I really wanna make him be happy. I really need his happiness. I really love him. I wanna save him, I wanna protect him, I wanna teach him back that his life so precious.
His life so precious for me, for himself.
He is my bestman. And yeah, he is that someone who I already told on my last post. The someone who already taught me to just love him all of my life, taught me to really love him, taught me to support each other when sad or happy,taught me to always pray to God to ask His/Her protect for my bestman, taught me to always make him happy all of his life.
Although we already broke up now, I still believe him, believe him.
He will take me out from here. I believe him much, and I wait for him.
My Bestman, My Special someone on my heart, Bestman who never change in my heart, cause none can change him in my heart. Someone who I really love more than myself, someone who never I can't explain why I love him. Someone who really important for myself. Someone who I will give my "something precious". Someone who will I give my First Kiss. Someone who I really love in deepest my heart, someone who I will really love all of my life, from the past, now, always, and forever.
His name is Rodrigo Esteban Carrasco Avendaño ♥
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Love Story part 2
Today, I post my Love story part 2..
Emm, I forgot someone (again, I forgot him, hahaha). I had a relation with him before I was dating with Dede.
His name is Yudi. I had a relation with him only two weeks, and maybe cause it, I forgot him.
I remember I had chat again with him, and I forgot him.
The reason why I forgot him,cause he suddenly said "kiss me". You know? That's really make me so afraid, and thought he is rare.
After, with Dede (read this post if you dont know, who he is), I was falling in love with my Social Teacher..
It was happening 2 years ago, when I was on 4th semester at my school. His is Herlambang Ibrahim. I called him Herbi. Well, "herbi" I found the word from novel I had read, the title is Mellisa.
From the first sight I saw him, I just could said,"He is look like My bro!". But, suddenly I didnt know why that feeling could come to my heart, I loved him...
It was really funny, I took his picture, and I sent him sms, and sometime he called me.. You know? At that time I was so happy..
But time after time, I have bestfriend, and she said, she really annoyance with me cause I couldn't be brave to ask herbi "would you like be my bf?". And because it, SHE sent herbi sms by my phone, and ask him "would you like be my bf?", my hell on the earth happened.. Herbi reply that sms, and he didn't know if that sms not from me but from my friend. I was so shame really shame.
He answered he already has gf. My heart break at the time but didnt make me really hurt..
I still remember how hard for me to take breathe.
But now, I just admire him, like I admire my old bro sibling.. (My brother? I admire him? What the hell I already said? Ah, whatever).
I love my old bro,I miss him. Two weeks I didnt meet him. He's in Malaysia, his work.
Wait, it's not the point of this post today.
I have to focus, ok, focus Asri, your bro is fine in there.
#SuddenlyCrying.. Hiks, my bro.. :'(
Ehh, FOCUS!!!!
Well, at the same time, cause I'm so hard to move on, there was boy ask me be his gf. He is one of my audience on radio (Called : Pesoners). Suddenly he was chasing me. He said, he loved my voice when I was broadcasting one of program on my school radio. I was speechless and little afraid. You never guessing, if suddenly there was your audience loves you and chase you.
His name is Ade.
From the first time, I already said to him I loved my teacher, and I couldn't accept him coz I didn't wanna hurt him.
Day after day, ok I gave up, I said to him, maybe we can have a relation, like you want.
We was dating just for less then one week. I still couldn't forget my Soctea.
I said sorry to him, really sorry, I said apologize to him, but he can't accepted it. He pray for me, he wants me get karma in love.
I don't know that's my fault?
Whereas, I already said to him I loved the other guy, but he always forced me..
Am I wrong? He always forced me, forced to be his gf..
I just didnt wanna hurt his heart, but he didn't wanna understand me..
I lost contact with him, cause I tried to stay away from him, I didn't wanna hurt his heart, I din't wanna hurt everyone heart. I just wanna do what the best things for me and for them.
If I have to go, I'll go..
I won't ever regret whatever I already chose. My choice is the ways of my life, I won't regret it coz I already chose it.
We broke up, and I try to fix my life to be better to get all of my dreams on my school, high score, high rank, etc. Try to forget herbi, and it was hard for me, until I found special someone on facebook...
That someone change my life and taught me what is "TRUE LOVE", taught me to just love him, to just look at him, taught me to appreciate life, taught me to support each other when happy or sorrow, he taught me everything, I love that someone more than myself, I wanna love him all of my life and never stop to love him.. I really love him, he is my life, my soul, my everything...
Continue on Love Story part 3 ;)
Monday, March 26, 2012
Love Story part 1
Today I wanna tell you bout all of my love story~~
I knew "LOVE" when I was 13yrs old or maybe 14yrs old, at that time I found my first love..
I never met him or saw his picture, just by phone calling and sms.. It was.. emm weird..
I ever loved him, he was looks like my bro.. (I'm brother complex)..
And when April 16th 2008, I officially lost contact with him..
His name is Felix..
And because I'm the one who so hard to move on, I tried to left all my feeling for him..
And just few days after that, there was boy ask me to be his gf... He was my first bf but.. I can't love him..
Well, although I couldn't loved him, we had a relation around 2years..
I couldn't love him cause he always force me to do what I didn't wanna do..
His name is Robby. I ever tried to started to loved him but when that feeling began to came to my heart, he played affair with me.. He lived with the other girl who doesn't have an "officially relation" with him, he was sleeping with the girl..
Thanks to God, I couldn't loved him..
After that, I was falling in love with my friend's ex bf.. Hahaha it was funny.. XD
Her ex bf, he was college student at Doctor Faculty UNPAD (same with Felix but in different depart. , Felix at Pharmacy Faculty UNPAD)..
His name is xxxxx, I dont wanna share his name coz maybe that boy will read my blog~~ =="a
You can ask to her , who is he~ hahahaha XDDD
FYI, he is playboy XD
Then, because I got hurt cause I loved him, I tried to focus on my junior high school national exam..
Time after time, Robby's young Brother, his name is Dede.
I thought, I would fall in love with him, he was kind, careful to me, etc...
But I was wrong, he isn't the good guy like what I was thinking bout him...
He and his brother try to get "My something precious"...
From the child, I promise and I swear to myself to God, that I will give "My something precious" just for my bestman forever, for the man that I'll love all of my life..
I was so shocked at that time, he asked me to "did it", and I didn't want.. He isn't my bestman, he isn't the man that I'll love all of my life..
After I said "no" to him, he said all of bad words to me, just because I don't wanna do it..
Yeah, I try to be the Assertive Woman, I'd say "no" when I dont want, I'd say "yes" if I want..
Fortunately, until today, right now, I never get my "first kiss"..
So many boys in my life, but I still save and protect myself carefully just for my bestman, just for the man I'll love all of my life..
Well, I'm sleepy now.. I gotta sleep now, and tomorrow I will tell my another love story.. ;)
I knew "LOVE" when I was 13yrs old or maybe 14yrs old, at that time I found my first love..
I never met him or saw his picture, just by phone calling and sms.. It was.. emm weird..
I ever loved him, he was looks like my bro.. (I'm brother complex)..
And when April 16th 2008, I officially lost contact with him..
His name is Felix..
And because I'm the one who so hard to move on, I tried to left all my feeling for him..
And just few days after that, there was boy ask me to be his gf... He was my first bf but.. I can't love him..
Well, although I couldn't loved him, we had a relation around 2years..
I couldn't love him cause he always force me to do what I didn't wanna do..
His name is Robby. I ever tried to started to loved him but when that feeling began to came to my heart, he played affair with me.. He lived with the other girl who doesn't have an "officially relation" with him, he was sleeping with the girl..
Thanks to God, I couldn't loved him..
After that, I was falling in love with my friend's ex bf.. Hahaha it was funny.. XD
Her ex bf, he was college student at Doctor Faculty UNPAD (same with Felix but in different depart. , Felix at Pharmacy Faculty UNPAD)..
His name is xxxxx, I dont wanna share his name coz maybe that boy will read my blog~~ =="a
You can ask to her , who is he~ hahahaha XDDD
FYI, he is playboy XD
Then, because I got hurt cause I loved him, I tried to focus on my junior high school national exam..
Time after time, Robby's young Brother, his name is Dede.
I thought, I would fall in love with him, he was kind, careful to me, etc...
But I was wrong, he isn't the good guy like what I was thinking bout him...
He and his brother try to get "My something precious"...
From the child, I promise and I swear to myself to God, that I will give "My something precious" just for my bestman forever, for the man that I'll love all of my life..
I was so shocked at that time, he asked me to "did it", and I didn't want.. He isn't my bestman, he isn't the man that I'll love all of my life..
After I said "no" to him, he said all of bad words to me, just because I don't wanna do it..
Yeah, I try to be the Assertive Woman, I'd say "no" when I dont want, I'd say "yes" if I want..
Fortunately, until today, right now, I never get my "first kiss"..
So many boys in my life, but I still save and protect myself carefully just for my bestman, just for the man I'll love all of my life..
Well, I'm sleepy now.. I gotta sleep now, and tomorrow I will tell my another love story.. ;)
Sunday, March 25, 2012
You know that I can!
I always think bout you, can you happy without me? if yes, I'll be happy for you :)
And today, I saw that. Yeah, you're happy now, I'm happy too..
Today I post this blog because i wanna tell the truth of my feeling..
I'm happy coz I saw your smile, I'm really happy because of it..
And this post doesn't mean that I'm sad..
I'm happy really happy, I just feel like "today my life begins"...
I'm happy coz of you, and I'm happy coz today I officially graduate from my Diploma, and I thought that's my present and my gift for my daddy b'day...
And I just wait for one month more, I'll be free my school, and I'll go from this place...
And I'll try to "manage" my "new life", and I wanna have my night, my day, my rules, on my own..
Free and free, myself will be free from all those rules from my school or my house...
I gotta move on and be who I am, and I will show to all of this world, that I can.
It's like my blog name, "YOU KNOW THAT I CAN"
And yes I can be my real self..
I wish, whoever read my post today or whenever, will accept myself whoever I am, like I accept all of you whoever you are...
Time,God,and Myself, just it can change my life, change myself who will be the strongest woman, and will be THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN in this world, it's like my Name ;) :P
Well, today it's enough, and now I'll take my own time ;)
And for "YOU" my best man, I still really love you now, always, and forever ;)
See you
And today, I saw that. Yeah, you're happy now, I'm happy too..
Today I post this blog because i wanna tell the truth of my feeling..
I'm happy coz I saw your smile, I'm really happy because of it..
And this post doesn't mean that I'm sad..
I'm happy really happy, I just feel like "today my life begins"...
I'm happy coz of you, and I'm happy coz today I officially graduate from my Diploma, and I thought that's my present and my gift for my daddy b'day...
And I just wait for one month more, I'll be free my school, and I'll go from this place...
And I'll try to "manage" my "new life", and I wanna have my night, my day, my rules, on my own..
Free and free, myself will be free from all those rules from my school or my house...
I gotta move on and be who I am, and I will show to all of this world, that I can.
It's like my blog name, "YOU KNOW THAT I CAN"
And yes I can be my real self..
I wish, whoever read my post today or whenever, will accept myself whoever I am, like I accept all of you whoever you are...
Time,God,and Myself, just it can change my life, change myself who will be the strongest woman, and will be THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN in this world, it's like my Name ;) :P
Well, today it's enough, and now I'll take my own time ;)
And for "YOU" my best man, I still really love you now, always, and forever ;)
See you
Friday, March 23, 2012
Just read it
I let you go, not because "I let you go"..
But I just give your own time without me..
I dont wanna leave you alone, but I think this is time for us to have our own "time" to can do what we want..
For me, with you it's so easy, but maybe for you, with me it's so hard...
I try to breathe in, and I think I have to say thank you for you, cause you had teach me "What is True Love"...
And I can't lie to myself, that I still really love you...
Today, I still really love you..
Past,now,always,and forever I really love you...
I have to go airport now, see you ;)
But I just give your own time without me..
I dont wanna leave you alone, but I think this is time for us to have our own "time" to can do what we want..
For me, with you it's so easy, but maybe for you, with me it's so hard...
I try to breathe in, and I think I have to say thank you for you, cause you had teach me "What is True Love"...
And I can't lie to myself, that I still really love you...
Today, I still really love you..
Past,now,always,and forever I really love you...
I have to go airport now, see you ;)
Friday, March 16, 2012
I can't hate you I still really love you..
I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I can't hate you...
And I'm really sorry cause I really love you...
I'm sorry cause I'm so jealously with you..
I know my feeling is annoying your life, yourself...
I know my feeling is annoying your life, yourself...
I know I'm nothing for you now...
But I'm still loving you..
I just need your happiness life..
I want you safe, I want you feel protect..
And I want you find someone who will love you more than me..
Who will save you, who will protect you, who will support you all the time, who will make you happy all your life, who will love you all your life...
Not lying yourself, not playing yourself..
I really want you happy, really happy...
I dont care that I have to hurt, but if that can make you happy it is ok, baby...
It's ok baby... T_T
Honestly, I need you cause I love you...
I need you, need you back in my life...
I know, for now you won't back in my life...
But I cant lie myself that I need you to safe you...
I dont want if something bad would happen to you...
I need you to love you, I need you to protect you...
I always try too hard to tell myself that you're not with me again...
But so much beautiful time that I can't forget it, I can't erase it...
But whatever the condition now, I'm still yours, forever yours...
FOREVER YOURS!!!
I will wait you, I believe you..
But I'm sorry I can't lie myself again that I'm alone, I hurt, I lost my soul, and I need you babe, to heal me, to give me back all of my heart pieces..
I really love you more than myself..
I REALLY LOVE YOU MORE THAN MYSELF!!!!
You still have all of me, and I'M STILL YOURS!!!
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